SOPHIE Habboo revealed the heartbreaking reason she “feels sad” when she looks at her wedding photos.
The former Made In Chelsea star, 31, and husband Jamie Laing, 37, tied the knot in a intimate ceremony in London back in April 2023.
The couple then held a larger, second wedding celebration with 250 guests in Marbella, Spain, the following month.
But Sophie admitted that she struggled with her anxiety to the point that she began to “spiral”, which prompted her to seek help with a therapist.
Sophie revealed she was shortly after diagnosed with ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) after the therapist spotted some of the symptoms and advised her to get a test.
Opening up about the stressful lead up to her wedding, Sophie said: “I’m still getting to know myself, it’s a long old process.
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“When we got engaged and started the wedding process, I always said to Jamie and he’ll say this as well – I love my husband so much and he’s amazing, so I don’t want to sound like I’m bashing him but he always wanted this huge big white wedding, loads of people and he wanted to walk down the aisle in a white suit.
“I told him straight away I wanted to get married with 20 people, with my feet in the sand.
“I don’t like birthday parties. It’s funny because I do the podcast and when I’m in the work environment I can do it, but in my private time I’m quite a private person and I don’t love being the centre of attention.”
Sophie said that her loved ones had told her that a big wedding is what she should want for herself – despite her desire to keep things small.
She said on Elizabeth Day’s How To Fail podcast: “When we were getting married he was very much like this is the big white wedding, this is what everyone dreams of.
“Everyone was saying it, not just him [Jamie]. We’ve grown up thinking women want this big white wedding.
“But I was incredibly overwhelmed, which then caused me to have massive anxiety.
“Then obviously the podcast, we’re so lucky that so many people were interested in it, but it became like a big spectacle weirdly.
“That made me have imposter syndrome, I was really struggling with massive overwhelm and anxiety.’
“I was looking around thinking everyone is so excited for me, everyone is rooting for us, I’m going to have this incredible wedding of people’s dreams, why am I not able to cope with this? My anxiety got so bad I went and spoke to a therapist and they said I think we need to get you tested for ADHD, have you ever been tested for it?
“And low and behold, I have ADHD.
“I know everyone talks about ADHD and it’s a bit of a buzzword at the moment, but having gone through what I’ve gone through, everyone handles it differently.
“But now I know I have it, it makes a lot of sense. It’s tough to manage if you’ve been diagnosed with it.”
Sophie was asked if she had second thoughts and wanted to call the whole thing off.
She replied: “Weirdly because I didn’t think that was an option was what caused the anxiety to spiral, I just held it all in because I was so confused about what I was feeling.
“I’d always wanted to be in entertainment, so be on stage and be an actor, so why could I not cope with with all of this attention.
“We did a live show a month before our wedding, all of those things.
“I couldn’t understand why I wasn’t managing, I thought there was something wrong with me.
“So I didn’t speak about it and say I’m really struggling and I’m anxious.
“I actually don’t want this enormous 250 person wedding, I want to just go and get married on a beach with bare feet, the fact I didn’t say those things made me worse.
“I feel sad looking back at it, I can see that I was struggling.
“I was really burnt out.
“I have compassion, but that’s only been since I got diagnosed and I unpacked it and did a lot of work on myself after my wedding.”
Sophie said she has plans to renew her wedding vows – but this time in the style she would have originally liked.
The couple welcomed their first child in late 2025 and are now opening up on the “terrifying” birthing experience they underwent.
Sophie underwent an emergency caesarean section after suffering “scary” complications in her labour.
“From my point of view, it was the scariest thing I have ever been through in my entire life,” Jamie said in a joint interview with Sophie to the Daily Mail.
“Watching your wife go through that, the person you love, and this baby, and you have no control. It was the most terrifying thing ever. Nothing can prepare you for that.”
Sophie added: “The complications were really scary. Obviously, it wasn’t the birth I planned or necessarily wanted, it was scary, but birth is different for every woman and however you do it is incredible and he’s here and he’s healthy and they were incredible.”
The new mum admitted that at first she did not want their birth to be filmed, but once she watched the footage, she realised she wanted to share it.
“And what happened was there were complications, and I ended up having an emergency C-section. The anaesthetist took our phone to take photos and filmed the entire thing… we didn’t even know, we had no idea,” Sophie explained.
