Liam Payne‘s girlfriend Kate Cassidy broke down in tears as she marked nine months since his tragic death.
The One Direction star died aged 31 on October 16 after falling from a hotel balcony in Buenos Aires, Argentina, and was found to have alcohol and cocaine in his system.
Content creator Kate, 26, who had been dating Liam for two years, has been documenting her grief journey on social media.
Wednesday marked nine months since Liam’s death, and Kate became emotional as she shared a realisation she had had about the passing of time.
Kate revealed she had recently cut her hair, got new tattoos and had her ears pierced, which felt like big changes to her.
The big changes however were bittersweet as it made her think about how she would look different to how she did when Liam knew her.
She said: ‘I don’t know how heaven works but is Liam going to look how he looked the last time I saw him?
Liam Payne’s girlfriend Kate Cassidy broke down in tears as she marked nine months since his tragic death
The One Direction star died aged 31 on October 16 after falling from a hotel balcony in Buenos Aires, Argentina, and was found to have alcohol and cocaine in his system
‘Since the last day that I saw him? Is he still going to be that beautiful, youthful human that he was and that he is?’
And Kate went on to say that she had been looking at old photos of herself with Liam before he died and admitted that she looked different.
She continued: ‘And then I started thinking further ahead, that if I am blessed to live a long, happy, beautiful life – when my time comes will Liam recognise me?
‘Like I’m going to be old I’m going to have wrinkles, grey hair, bony hips. How will Liam find me? How will he recognise me? And I just got really emotional.’
Kate revealed she had been with a friend when she got upset, but was given some touching advice.
She said: ‘I was with my friend and my friend said “Kate of course he’s going to recognise you” – sorry I’m shaking – “of course he’s going to recognise you, he’s going to recognise you no matter what you look like, it doesn’t matter how old you are he’s going to recognise you and you know what he’s going to say to you? He’s going to come up to you and look at you and he’s going to say to you he’s so glad you look the way you look. He’s going to say you’re lucky you were able to age and have these wrinkles and have the white hair and have the evidence of living these years without him by your side. He is going to be happy that you lived, and lived fully, and lived a life. And he’s going to want to sit there and hear all about it.”
‘And it just really reminded me to stay strong and to carry on and to live my life to the fullest for what I can right now, not only for myself but for him. So here’s to another day of living life without the person that I love. I miss you so much and I love you so much.’
Earlier this month Kate remembered the moment her and the late singer adopted their pet dog Nala.
Wednesday marked nine months since Liam’s death, and Kate became emotional as she shared a realisation she had had about the passing of time
She said: ‘Yesterday I cut my hair, I got new tattoos, I got my ears pierced, and for some people they might look at these as minor things, but for me these are big changes’
Earlier this month Kate remembered the moment her and the late singer adopted their pet dog Nala (Kate and Liam seen in 2023)
The internet personality shared a sweet previously unseen clip to Instagram on Tuesday that bean with her and Nala enjoying a day at the beach.
Captioned: ‘There wouldn’t be this… without you,’ it then switched to a video with Liam from when they first adopted Nala.
Kate wrote: ‘I remember the day we got Nala, we walked into the room at the animal shelter and Nala was the only dog not barking.
‘Liam pointed her out and we took her home now I need to learn how to get her to stop barking.’
And last month Kate revealed a sweet moment in her day that made her feel connected to her late ex.
Kate took to her Story to reveal that during her trip to get her nails done, the salon starting playing One Direction song What Makes You Beautiful on the speaker.
The timing of the song coming on was particularly poignant for her as when it started playing she had just done a post about her changing appearance over the years and which tweakments she has had done.
Last month Kate revealed a sweet moment in her day that made her feel connected to her late ex
She said in a clip: ‘I just left the nail salon I am in awe.
‘I was in the nail salon and I did a post about the last two years and about how I feel about my appearance and how my looks have changed the literal second I pressed post What Makes You Beautiful Came on.
‘The first line of that song is ‘you don’t need makeup to cover up, being the way that you are is enough’, and it couldn’t have been a more perfect song to come on. I’m so happy I can’t explain it.’
Her previous clip said: ‘Please volume this so hard to hear. PLS CHECK MY LAST REEL AS SOON AS I PRESSED POST you don’t know you’re beautiful came on at the salon. I’m in awe.’
