THE ex-husband of Amy Winehouse has revealed the heartbreaking moment he was told she had died.
Blake Fielder-Civil, 43, opened up about his turbulent relationship with the late singer admitting they were getting back together before her death in 2011.
Blake was married to Amy for two years before they divorced in 2009 with the pair known for their hard drug use and rocky relationship.
The pair were granted a divorce on grounds of adultery, which Amy admitted.
Two years later, Amy’s body was discovered by paramedics at her flat in Camden, where she had tragically died of alcohol poisoning.
Blake has now opened up about his relationship with Amy, his struggle with addiction, and the reality of their heavily scrutinised marriage.
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Speaking on TV host Paul C. Brunson’s podcast We Need To Talk, he said: “The week Amy passed, I was in jail, unfortunately, we were still very much talking about the possibility of reconciling again.
“So I would say the definitive moment I realised that wasn’t gonna happen was when I got told that she’d passed away.
“That’s not me saying, oh, if Amy’s alive now, we’d be together, I’m not saying that, I have a life now I’m in love, happy.
“However, I have no qualms about saying that, that we would still be in each other’s lives now. You know, I would’ve met her today for a drink or a coffee, whatever. But yeah, the final moment – it was never final for me, the divorce wasn’t the end.
He added: “The arguments weren’t the end, the press, her dad, none of that was strong enough to pull us apart, it was only her and I saying nobody understands this but us, let’s see if we can show that we get clean.
“You do that, I’ll do that. And then we’ll see where we’re at. But it didn’t happen…
“We actually spoke when I first moved up to Yorkshire after I got out of rehab up there, we spoke about getting married again which probably gave her dad nightmares.”
At the time of Amy’s funeral, Blake was serving a 32-month sentence at Armley Prison in Leeds for burglary and a firearm offence.
It was reported that he had been denied compassionate leave by the authorities and that Amy’s father did not want him to attend.
Blake later recalled the moment he had found out Amy had passed away he received no answer whilst trying to call the singer.
He began: “We’d spoken on a Monday or a Wednesday, and then I had saved my Pin phone credits to call her on the weekend.
“And then Saturday morning I went to ring and say, you know, what are you up to? I got your letter, did you one back. and no answer. No answer when I tried again in the afternoon. And then after about, I can’t remember what time maybe 4 or 5, 6 in the evening some prison officers came to my door and told me what happened.”
Paul replied: “So you remember that moment exactly, are you open to sharing what happened?”
Blake recalled: “Yeah, I can yeah. I was in my cell, took me down to an office, told me, showed me a news headline because I said it would be a hoax to straightaway saying, oh, it’s not true don’t worry.”
“When I was in jail for the first time, I’m not a religious person, but I used to pray every night. I’d say, please let Amy stay alive until I get out, because I had this massive fear like an absolute controlling fear that something’s going to happen to her if I’m not about. Something’s going to happen to her and I’m in here and I’m not able to do anything or help or even be there.
“So I always just be like please keep Amy alive until I get out. So when they told me that, my first thought was, this is my worst nightmare, it’s not true. So as my brain was grasping at it’ll be a hoax. You know, these things happen and then they showed me a BBC link, and obviously I was more, I was more conscious at that point that this had happened, but my head was swimming straight away.
“And yeah, obviously I held it together. You can’t be crying walking down the wings in a jail. I had to wait until I got into my cell. My cellmate at the time was a really solid guy. He’d seen it on the news and gave me a hug straight away. I burst into tears. He started crying too.
“So it’s strange I got held up by, you know, as being supported and held up by somebody I’d known from a matter of weeks; that was the only comfort I had at that moment for losing this massive, huge part of my life, a big part of my heart.
“Somebody I was not going to see again or hear again or anything again, it was too much.”
