BOMBSHELL unheard audio of Michael Jackson sharing his deepest “intimate” thoughts on children will be revealed in a new documentary.
In the chilling voice recordings, the music legend can be heard discussing his deep-seated feelings on his infatuation with kids.
During one alarming moment Jackson even admitted that if he could not be close to children he would take his own life, according to the New York Post.
“If you told me right now . . . Michael, you could never see another child…I would kill myself,” he reportedly said.
“Children want to just touch me and hug me.
“Kids end up falling in love with my personality. Sometimes it gets me into trouble.”
The unsettling recordings alongside a number of never-before-seen tapes have been secured for a four-part Channel 4 series called The Trial.
Set to premiere on February 4, the docuseries details new revelations from the pop icon’s 2005 child molestation trial.
Shedding new light on Jackson’s relationship with child cancer survivor Gavin Arvizo, who later accused him of sexual abuse, unseen footage shows their pair going on picnics alone together.
Gavin accused him of sexual molestation in 2005, saying Jackson showed him pornography and gave him alcohol.
The star – who admitted to sharing his bed with kids – was cleared of all 14 charges, including four counts of molesting a child, four counts of getting a child drunk so that he could molest him, and of secretly conspiring to hold the boy and his family captive at his California ranch, Neverland.
He was also charged with supplying alcohol to the boy, now 15.
The New York Post spoke to an insider who had heard the recordings.
“There is something extremely unusual and eerie about Michael Jackson’s infatuation with children – especially those who are not his own,” they said.
“To hear his voice discuss children in this manner, given he had been accused on molestation, raises many questions about his mental health, mindset and sadly, intentions.
“This is Michael at his most open giving us an insight into how he was in love with children . . . infatuated with wanting to be around them,” they added.
Continuing on, the insider said Jackson saw “nothing wrong with bringing kids to his home and his bed without parental supervision”.
“[He justified] those actions by saying he is a just a friend looking to help,” they said.
“He even went further — expressing how most of the spoiled children fell in love with him.
“These are very uneasy phrases and language to hear from a single man in his 40s.”
The insider said the footage also showed how Jackson cared for Gavin throughout his cancer battle.
“Many doctors felt that his diagnosis was terminal, but Michael never gave up hope,” they said.
“Michael described how he told Gavin he looked like an angel to him. The way that these could have been interpreted are fascinating.”
Executive producer Tom Anstiss said: “The unheard audio tapes of Michael Jackson offer a rare and privileged window into Michael’s psyche and his soul”.
He said The Trial would “deliver a new understanding of who Michael Jackson really was, what he thought and the seismic moments that shaped his life”.
“The tapes are emotionally raw and very real,” he said.
“At points, you can hear Michael is close to tears.”
Jackson’s former public relations advisor appears in the show, revealing that he “absolutely” believed the allegations against the popstar, according to the Telegraph.
“I believe there was a cover-up for so many years,” he said.
Jackson’s estate still vehemently denies all child molestation accusations against him.
He had three children of his own, Prince, Bigi (formerly Blanket) and Paris.
The trio have described him as “the best father you could ever imagine”, according to People.
Jackson died of an overdose on a prescription anaesthetic four years after the trial concluded.
