Heston Blumenthal broke down in tears and apologised as his son revealed the devastating impact of his bipolar battle on their family.
The popular TV chef, 59, is well known for presenting Channel 4 shows Heston’s Fantastical Food and Heston’s Feasts.
Heston was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in November 2023 after he began experiencing hallucinations, mania and even suicidal thoughts.
Bipolar disorder is a brain disorder which causes unusual and often sudden changes in mood and energy levels.
The English chef and restaurateur’s new BBC show, Heston: My Life With Bipolar, is set to hit screens on Thursday evening at 8pm and follows Heston as he explores the impact the condition has had on his life.
Heston previously told how his wife French entrepreneur Melanie Ceysson, 36, made the brave choice to have him sectioned – which he has since said ‘saved my life’.
Heston Blumenthal (pictured) broke down in tears and apologised as his son revealed the devastating impact of his bipolar battle on their family
The popular TV chef, 59, is well known for presenting Channel 4 shows Heston’s Fantastical Food and Heston’s Feasts
The English chef and restaurateur’s new BBC show, Heston: My Life With Bipolar, is set to hit screens on Thursday evening at 8pm and follows Heston as he explores the impact the condition has had on his life
During the programme, Heston sits down with his son, Jack, 32, and the pair discuss the impact bipolar had on the chef’s relationship with his children.
Jack admitted the family ‘found it difficult’ but that it felt positive to know what caused the issues now Heston has been diagnosed.
‘We just wanted a relaxing conversation with our dad, and we weren’t allowed to have one,’ Jack said.
Heston interjected: ‘Because I just didn’t stop talking…’
His son agreed and added: ‘You didn’t want to know anyone’s thoughts, I just don’t think you gave a s**t.’
Jack confessed the condition made it difficult to speak and interact with his father.
He explained: ‘It always started off really well for a few minutes and then it just turned… I had to walk away sometimes, I had to go ‘we’re not doing it’ and every time we tried to hype ourselves up to come and see you.’
‘I’m so sorry,’ Heston said, as he looked emotional.
During the programme, Heston sits down with his son, Jack (pictured), 32, and the pair discuss the impact bipolar had on the chef’s relationship with is children
Jack admitted the family ‘found it difficult’ but that it felt positive to know what caused the issues now Heston has been diagnosed
‘We just wanted a relaxing conversation with our dad, and we weren’t allowed to have one,’ Jack said
Jack revealed the amount of preparation it would take to meet with his dad in the past.
‘We’d plan it three weeks in advance, mentally just getting prepared just to see you for half an hour. It was horrible and it was constant,’ he described.
Heston teared up and tenderly took his son’s hand.
‘Talking about this, this happened,’ the TV star said, pointing to his tearful eyes. ‘And I realise it’s not me being bipolar, well it is me being bipolar, it’s damaging the people I love, the people around me. So I’m sorry.’
His son replied: ‘I know, and I don’t think you have to say that, because we know you were kind of in a bit of a world of your own at certain points and this conversation needed to be had, didn’t it?’
‘I just want you to know that I love you, I forgive you for everything and I’m really proud to me your son,’ Jack added.
The chef emotionally apologised again and said: ‘I want to thank you, thank you for this. I want you to know how sincerely sorry I am. I love you, I love you, my children so much and I can see it now.’
The pair then shared a hug.
‘We’d plan it three weeks in advance, mentally just getting prepared just to see you for half an hour. It was horrible and it was constant,’ he described
The chef emotionally apologised again and said: ‘I want to thank you, thank you for this. I want you to know how sincerely sorry I am. I love you, I love you, my children so much and I can see it now.’
The documentary also looks into the state of healthcare for those with bipolar in the UK, with Heston talking to others who also have the condition about their experiences.
He said: ‘I was living with undiagnosed bipolar for many years, so it’s been an extraordinary journey to get where I am today.
‘There is still a big stigma around bipolar, but it is vital to be able to talk openly about the condition.
‘I know this isn’t always easy, but I hope by sharing my experience in this documentary people will gain a greater understanding of bipolar and an insight into my life now.’
Heston, who has an impressive seven Michelin stars, became an ambassador for Bipolar UK in February.
The charity describes the mental health condition as an episodic disorder characterised by potentially extreme changes in energy and mood.
It carries the highest suicide risk of any mental health condition.
Bipolar UK estimates more than one million adults in Britain have the disorder – which is 30 per cent more than the number of people with dementia.
The documentary also looks into the state of healthcare for those with bipolar in the UK, with Heston talking to others who also have the condition about their experiences
Heston, who has an impressive seven Michelin stars, became an ambassador for Bipolar UK in February. Pictured with his wife French entrepreneur Melanie Ceysson (right)
But it is thought some 56 per cent of those living with bipolar in the UK do not have a diagnosis.
It comes after a heart-wrenching tell-all interview Heston gave to This Morning in March, recounting his suicidal thoughts and how he hallucinated about guns.
The chef spoke about his mental health struggles to presenters Cat Deeley, 48, and Ben Shepherd, 50, to mark bipolar awareness month.
He is keen to raise awareness about the condition, explaining the figures about the high number of people living with it in the UK – along with the significant proportion of those who are undiagnosed.
The food critic explained before his diagnosis, he had stepped away from cooking and had a bit more time on his hands, which meant manic episodes became more prevalent.
Heston said on the ITV show: ‘In the darker moments, there was suicidal thoughts…
‘I realised afterwards, it’s quite a classic symptom of being in a mania stage you can hallucinate sound, smell, touch. I saw a gun on the table.
‘I told my wife, which obviously, for me, it all seemed quite normal. I looked back at it, there was nothing normal about it.’
Heston wants to break the stigma surrounding the disorder and confessed that he had ‘no idea’ he had it.
He explained: ‘It was about 13/14 months ago when I was sectioned.
‘I got the diagnosis. I had no idea. I was diagnosed with ADHD in 2017, so there is quite a big cross over with ADHD and Bipolar. There are similar symptoms.
It comes after a heart-wrenching tell-all interview Heston gave to This Morning in March , recounting his suicidal thoughts and how he hallucinated about guns
The chef spoke about his mental health struggles to presenters Cat Deeley, 48, and Ben Shepherd, 50, to mark bipolar awareness month
‘I really didn’t think about it until having sort of manic highs and dropping to these lows.
‘When you’re on these manic highs, you get this sense of I don’t know, you think I’m superman, everything is beautiful.
‘Then something happens, it’s a bit like an an overreactive child that’s really having a great time, then someone moves something and then they have a mini tantrum.
‘Then you can go into these sort of darker moments.’
Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) is a behavioural condition defined by inattentiveness, hyperactivity and impulsiveness.
The restaurant owner also praised his wife Melanie for having him sectioned: ‘It was the best thing that could have happened to me.’
Cat said: ‘That is very brave of her.’
‘She didn’t know if I’d blame her so much, that there was resentment build it,’ he continued, ‘But it saved my life.’
After two months of hospitalisation he was put on medication ‘that is continually being tweaked’.
Heston said: ‘I can look back and think blimey, those highs and lows, now I am definitely in the process of stabilising.’
If you have been affected by this story, contact Mind on 0300 123 3393
Heston: My Life With Bipolar airs on BBC Two on June 19 at 8pm and is available to stream on BBC iPlayer.
